Friday, June 30, 2006

Forgive & Forget?

suddenly feeling troubled....actually i wasn't feeling so troubled until i saw a message on my friend's friendster.

we 2 had a quarrel last yr...which i guess we didn't really quarrel but it's due to another friend....the problem is between us but that kpo friend has to add woods to the fire and things finally blew off after her participation. so my that kpo friend keep tagging to this friend of mine which made it even harder for us to make up at that point of time.

i always think that when someone quarrel...it's best to make up at the same day and not later. coz as things drag...both party won't feel like talking to each other anymore.

so things just move on without both of us talking to each other anymore. as this friend belongs to 1 of the gang i hang out with, and she is the princess of that group, automatically she left me out from all the gatherings as she is always the organiser. i knew abt those gatherings as 1 guy of that gang still keeps in contact with me. there is this very good friend of mine in this gang which makes me very disappointed in him. this girl is well known in our gang to be very pampered and whenever we go anywhere, we have to give in to her decision. if we decided to go 1 place and she don't like, we have to go to places she like...so my that very good friend of mine and i had spoken before about her and we weren't really pleased with her attitude everytime we went out.

however, as i have said, that girl is the princess of the gang and she is VERY influential in the gang, so no one dare to ask me out to their gathering i guess...

so since last yr, i have already given up this group of friends. actually i nv think they felt close to me compare to her. usually they only call me when they need help. but whenever i need help, their replies are always "i'm busy.." or "i call u later" or "sorry can't help"

sometimes it's very sad to feel that your friend doesn't care for you at all and everytime they call u for help, even if u r busy u would give some time to them. it's just like they are taking u for granted.

however, as i said earlier, i saw my that princess friend friendster. she actually put up a pic of me n her which we had taken last yr when we haven't quarrel and the caption was "i miss her so..."

i know she isn't a bad ger in nature. it's just that she is too pampered and can't differentiate between being right or wrong acting that way. i did have yrs of enjoyable times with her too but most of the time i keep bearing with the attitude as i know that that's her lifestyle. she can't change after so many yrs. in fact, to date, i have already known her for 7 yrs....it's not a short period...but it's just so sad when someone whom u have known for so many yrs did something like this to u...

to forgive & forget means getting back to the old lifestyle. yes..it will mean i get back a group of old friends. but it's like their her followers. when i m her friend den they are my friends. it just doesn't seems to be true friends. true friends doesn't give up a friend just because they want to make the other friend happy.

i really believe that she does miss me as she likes to stick around me in the past. but sometimes it's just so hard to forgive & forget when u start to think about the other factors....

hai....just doesn't know what to do at all...

1 comment:

  1. i also find it hard to forgive and forget when it comes to certain things that my frens has done before, i guess it's like a mental hurdle that we have to go pass ourselves.....

    1 thing that i always believed: Friends come and go, but TRUE friends are here to stay.....

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